Tuesday, February 24, 2009


Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I walk down the busy make-shift street, dragging my feet at a sluggish pace. My freshly pressed uniform smothers me. The harsh rays of the sun beat down on me from directly above. I'm not quite used to the heat. Other Soldiers I don’t know rush past me, nodding a quick greeting before carrying on. Just like me, they are here for their loved ones – their wife, their child, their mother, and their friends. They are who they fight to protect. I study each face, praying silently for their safety.

I reach my destination; a small lounge near the bath houses. The walls are a deep beige canvas, held together with steel bars heated by the sun. It’s a little more crowded than usual, men playing a game of pool and enjoying drinks. I see a group of women laughing over a tabloid magazine I recognize as last month’s issue. In a dimly lit corner I see a group of men and women, still in their dusty uniform, standing out from the rest in the building. They sit around an unbalanced table in metal fold chairs, barely speaking to each other, eyes cast to the ground.
Greetings are simple, but warm. I can feel their stiff tired muscles when we share brief embraces. Two empty chairs are open and I find my place within the group.

Stories are shared. We all know them. Memories of peaceful times at home fill the air around us. Swimming at the lake side cabin. Jumping over the summer campfire. Skipping classes to go snowboarding. We push fake smiles to our faces as we remember these times; they all seem so far away now, so childish.

I glance at the last remaining empty chair, knowing its own story.
Tristan loved snowboarding, I say.
All eyes focus on the empty chair.

Saturday, February 21, 2009


Saturday, February 21, 2009

-------------6 years ago----------

1.) How old were you? 11
2.) Where did you go to school? Ellison Elementary
3.) Where did you work? I didn't.
4.) Where did you live? South Vernon
5.) Where did you hang out? At Home
6.) Did you wear glasses? Yes
7.) Who was your best friend? Serena
8.) How many tattoos did you have? None
9.) How many piercings did you have? Just my ears
10.) What car did you drive? I didn't.
11.) Had you been to a real party? No
12.) Had You had your heart broken? no
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single

-------------3 years ago----------

1.) How old were you? 14
2.) Where did you go to school? Clarence Fulton High
3.) Where did you work? A little at the Garden Parlor (2 months)
4.) Where did you live? South Vernon
5.) Where did you hang out? Home ot at friends houses
6.) Did you wear glasses? Yes
7.) Who was your best friend? Serena and Tyler
8.) How many tattoos did you have? None
9.) How many piercings did you have? Just my ears
10.) What car did you drive? Didn't
11.) Had your heart broken? No
12.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Dated for a little while


1.) How old are you? 17
2.) Where do you go to school? Clarence Fulton High
3.) Where do you work? Don't.
4.) Where do you live? Downtown
5.) Where do you hang out? Home
6.) Who is your best friend? Jesse
7.) How many tattoos do you have? None yet.
8.) How many piercings do you have? Just my ears
9.) What car do you drive? Don't
10.) Had your heart broken? Ish?
11.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single

1 MINUTE AGO: Writing this quiz
1 HOUR AGO: Reading
1 DAY AGO: Grad Photo's / Hang out with Jesse
1 YEAR AGO: I don't know

I LOVE: Culture
I HATE: Steriotypes
I FEAR: Dying
I FEEL: Bored
I HIDE: My Thoughts
I MISS: The good ol' days
I KNOW: Lots
I THINK: To Much

I AM: Stressed
I HAVE: a Cold
I LIKE: Reading
I WISH: I had a Job
I DANCE: Crazy
I CRY: Lots

COLOR: Black, Blue, Pink
DAY(S): Friday, Saturday
MONTH(S): September, October, June, July
SEASON: Summer

GOTTEN SICK?: Still am, kinda
SAID 'I love you'?: no
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: This? Ya, and my Writing Journal
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yea, with Jesse

_______ Best ________

1. Male Friend: Jesse
2. Female Friend: Lindsay
3. Best Age: 20
4. Best Memory: Many

_______ Worst ________

1. Time Of Day: Morning
2. Day Of The Week: Monday
3. Food: Veggetables
4. Memory: I've repressed it.

_______ Last ________

1. Person you saw: My Sister?
2. Talk on the phone: Jesse
3. Person you kissed: Grayson
4: Instant Msg: Casy
5. Big car ride: Kelowna? Salmon Arm?
6. Movie seen in theaters: Twilight
7. Food consumed: Yogurt
8. Person you texted: Jesse
9. CD played: Heart Station
10. Drink: Orange Soda

_______ First ________

1. Kiss: Don't remember
2. Serious b/f or g/f: Steve
3. Job: Garden Parlor
4. Piercing: Ears
5. Credit card: n/a

_______ Today ________

1. What are you doing now: Listening to Music
2. Tonight: Chores & Writing
3. Wearing: Grad sweats and tank top
4. What did you eat for lunch: Nothing

_______ Tomorrow ________

1. Is: Sunday
2. Got any plans: Nope
3. Goal: Writing complete chapter of Selene, at least in rough
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Mom will try to get me to go to church
5. Likes about tomorrow: No school

Friday, February 20, 2009

The Past few Years

Friday, February 20, 2009
So, here I am, trying to write a story that I have an AMAZING idea for - but of course I am stuck on how to start it... I remembered something I wrote last year, and tried to find it, and came across my OLD blog. I started reading it and thinking about all the things I had to write about. It seems my life has completely flipped since then.

-I had a boyfriend, Steve. It was good at first but then I suppose he lost interest because of being 14 hours away. Lame, he's the only boyfriend I ever introduced to my Parents.
- I was fighting with Jesse, and Jake... and pretty much didn't have many friends.
- I was getting low marks in school.
- Not much Confidence
- Not to many worries outside of boys, friends, grades and cadets.

All in all, It was a pretty depressing point socially. Looking back I sound so.... innocent?

- No Boyfriend... nada, zip, zilch. I like someone, but that is never gonna happen. He knows I like him but he lives in the next town over... and dosn't like me that way. So that was dead before it even started.
- Me and Jesse are friends again, but we've grown up. He's living with his boyfriend in Salmon Arm so we don't talk as much.
- My marks are quite good, sitting at an A average all this year.
- I have a lot more confidence, at least I think so. I have times where I'm down but I know what I want, know what I have to do to get it, and know I can do whatever it takes.
- LOTS of worries, all those from then, plus finding an apartment in Kamloops, getting a job, paying tuition, graduation... and the list goes on!

Wonder what the next year will bring? Where will I be? Kamloops? I hope so, but what I don't go? Where will I be? Sitting here in the same spot?

I am hoping to start a new blog when I move, as it will feel like a bug fresh start for me. Not only am I starting university and moving, I'm going to try and break a lot of bad habits too. So, expect a post this summer directing you to my new blog.

Of course thats granted I get the money... bah I dont want to think about that tonight :(

Forgoten note:

I won that La Carmina contest!
I won a really cute shirt designed by Australian Designer Akina

Grad Photo's

Got them done today.
Also got to see Jesse! We went out for lunch.
I got the typical ones in the grad gown,
as well as me with my favorite books, one with my mom, and one with Jake and Jesse.
I can't wait to see how they turned out!

Speaking of books, I'm reading a really good one; A Great and Terrible Beauty.
Takes place in 1890's London, about a girl and her encounters with magic and other realms while studying at a ladies finishing school due to her mothers death after growing up in India all her life.
Because of this book, I have neglected to watch any more than 2 episodes of gundam.

I am so tired, and will sleep very well tonight - It's a long weekend too!!
Lucky me!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Gundam 00

Sunday, February 15, 2009
So I started watching this Anime last fall when the first season came out, but of course, as the episodes grew harder and harder to find, I gave up.

Now the new season is airing in Japan, and due to 1) explaining the show to a friend at school; and 2) listening to both the openings and endings on youtube - I have gained an interest in the show again.

Now - the biggest question was where to find all the episodes...

Well, thanks to some kind people at crunchyroll, they shared a link to where I can watch all the episodes.

So I'm starting from the begining, as I forget a lot of the first season's story.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Sick (ya, what else is new?)

Saturday, February 14, 2009
So I'm sick again... Head cold this time
So I won't be writing much as my head feels like it is going to explode.

No word back from ORA on getting the job... I really hope I did - training aparently starts on tuesday there.

I need to write 5 journal entries by monday for creative writing - I probably won't as not feeling well dosn't make for great ideas to write about.

Oh yea, Valentines Day sucks

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Modeling/Fashion Show

Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Started practices for the Grad Fashion show today. I get to model for this high-fashion store that is considered "coture" as all the clothes are hand made. Jeans there go for about $200-$500 each!


The set is pretty sweet too, gonna be tricky to walk up and down stairs and try not to trip and fall on my face... that would be plesant!

Oh and about the job interview - it went pretty good I suppose. I'll know for sure when I get a call saying I got the job. (fingers crossed!!)
If I don't hear from them by next tuesday, I know I didn't make it. Thats when they are starting training...
So yea, I'll have to miss cadets... again... because I didn't go this week... because I have KILLER CRAMPS

I swear, they are out to get me...

Monday, February 9, 2009

La Carmina - Reader Appreciation Week - Enter to Win!!!

Monday, February 9, 2009
I've been reading La Carmina's blog for a long time now, admiring her take on Japanese fashion and seeing what is new and different idea's to try.
Well this week is her reader appreciation week, and she is giving away some sweet prizes!!
So go to her blog, and enter quick!

Contest ends Febuary 15th (SO GO!!....... NOW!!)

Oh, and this is my first time mentioning this site on my blog - it's really a cute site. Carmina is a writer with a couple cute and interesting books coming out, and her take on alternative fashion is great. It's a great blog for browsing, just for the sake of browsing. A must check out for sure!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


Wednesday, February 4, 2009
So I got a call today from the place I had an interview at on Monday... and they want me back for a second interview next monday!!!

This is the best news I've heard in over 3 months, I really need this job.


Decided that I'm probably gonna quit soon - esspecially if I do get this job. I will make more working 8 hrs a day than I would at camp.

I would totally choose camp over a summer job if money wasn't an issue - but university isn't gonna be cheap and I have no idea how many scholarships I'm gonna be able to get so if I have the chance to make more money I need to take it.

I really don't want to get a shit load of student loans - that would suck

But, I'm still not fully decided yet, it depends on if I get this job or if I can get another one soon. Then I'll have to see if they will hire me FULL TIME over the summer... 4 hours a day will be pointless and I might as well go to camp.

I'm so sleepy but I need to finish my short story by thursday (EEK!!) and I only have like half the first copy done (SHIT!!)

Monday, February 2, 2009

Job Interview & New Classes

Monday, February 2, 2009
Just got back from one, for a restaurant called "ORA" in the Prestige Inn. It seemed to go well, but I guess i'll find out if I get a phone call this week for a call-back.

Band tonight, bleh. I probably won't do much. In fact I'll take my journal and see if it can figure out a short story.

Oh yea, New classes started today. Creative Writing 12 and Civilizations 12 - both seem to be pretty fantastic classes so far!

In Writing we did some silent reading, journal exercizes and did a cool meet & greet where we had to sit and talk with people we didn't know. I talked with a classmate Melissa first, and found out she loves country and is a farm girl at heart, even though she chills a lot with the preppy-rap-sporty crowd. I also talked with a guy named Nolan, found out his parents are from Belgium but he was born in Argentina and has traveled A LOT. With him he asked me a lot about me, mostly about my trip to mexico. Last, I talked to DJ - a Nigerian exchange student. He told me that I would get good english teaching jobs in Africa. He also told me he would remember my name easy because Its a common name in Nigeria (COOL!!)
For homework in writing i have to have a short story finished by thursday. Its cus I'm in the first "group" - there are 3 groups and every week, every person in each group will present a finished piece of work. I might do a narrative or discriptive piece instead.

Civ was boring today, but thats mostly because we were just doing basic starter things like "what is civilization" "what makes history, history?" ect ect
But the teacher i have for that class "dosen't believe in homework" which is great >.<

Sunday, February 1, 2009


Sunday, February 1, 2009
Almost finished watching Innocent Love! ♥
It's definitely a roller coaster drama. I'm really happy for Kanon and Junya one minute, then I'm crying my eyes out for her! The last episode I seen ended so well - I love the Junya & Kanon paring but I can't help but feel sad for the way Kiyoka got upset when she finally remembered about Junya. The next episode is the finale and it looks like a tear-jerker. From what I have seen of the "next time on..." was that Kiyoka commits suicide by jumping off a building at Junya & Kanon's wedding but Junya breaks her fall. Dunno what happens to him but it shows him lying there with blood all around him and Kanon freaking out...

I can't decide which drama to watch next. Mei-chan no Shitsuji and Love Shuffle are on my watch list, but they are only just starting to air in Japan so it will be a while before I watch them yet. I started watching Aishiteru to Itte Kure but not really getting that into it, so it will be more of one I watch on the side...

I'm thinking maybe First Kiss (with Inoue Mao) or Rookies (with a BUNCH of hot guys).

I also REALLY need to find the new season of Code Geass R2 and Gundam 00 - both I haven't been watching since like last spring o.O