Monday, June 28, 2010

New blog...

Monday, June 28, 2010
Annoying, yes I know...

But so is having two google accounts. I use one for youtube and one for here, but its been a pain having to log in and out between the two over and over again. Whenever I want to post here it logs me out on youtube and then i have to log back in, and the circle never ends!!

This blog will still be alive for me too look back on, ect - but I won't post here much.

Here is the new blog


Sunday, June 13, 2010


Sunday, June 13, 2010
I can't get you out of my mind. I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile, how much I love your laugh... I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation, laughing at funny things that you said or did... I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine and I wonder what will happen the next time we are together.

But I'm scared. I'm scared of what I feel and what I've said. I dont know how you feel about me, and it scares me more than anything... Sometimes you act like you feel the same way, but then the next minute you're not... You confuse me. I just get used to the fact that we will be only friends, but then you do that thing you always do, and its like I'm back at the start all over again. I don't know how much more of this I can handle.

I know I need to move on. Hopefully a summer apart will help things, but I'm pretty sure I'll just end up as head-over-heels when we see eachother again in the fall. Till then, all I can do is hope I can get my mind off you long enough to enjoy summer, and maybe, maybe, move on.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Sunday, June 6, 2010

hit er up && ask away!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Top Places I wanna go

Saturday, June 5, 2010
I've been looking into jobs with the UN, as well as volunteering jobs overseas over the past few days.... There are just so many places I wanna see and people I want to help!

Well, I have 2 lists.

First is places I want to vacation or possibly live/work in. These are more typical "tourist" places so I wanted to give them their own list.

1. Japan
2. Germany
3. Russia
4. Australia
5. Dubai

Second are places I want to volunteer in.

1. India
2. Thailand
3. Mexico (again)
4. Kenya
5. Middle East (Afghanistan mainly)

I'm gonna try and save up $3,000 for next summer to go to India. That would cover everything for 4-6 weeks with lots of spending money left over, while I volunteer in an orphanage with the IFRE. It would be so amazing!!