New blog...

Annoying, yes I know...

But so is having two google accounts. I use one for youtube and one for here, but its been a pain having to log in and out between the two over and over again. Whenever I want to post here it logs me out on youtube and then i have to log back in, and the circle never ends!!

This blog will still be alive for me too look back on, ect - but I won't post here much.

Here is the new blog

http://whitehexe.blogspot.com/

peace!

btw

I can't get you out of my mind. I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile, how much I love your laugh... I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation, laughing at funny things that you said or did... I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine and I wonder what will happen the next time we are together.

But I'm scared. I'm scared of what I feel and what I've said. I dont know how you feel about me, and it scares me more than anything... Sometimes you act like you feel the same way, but then the next minute you're not... You confuse me. I just get used to the fact that we will be only friends, but then you do that thing you always do, and its like I'm back at the start all over again. I don't know how much more of this I can handle.

I know I need to move on. Hopefully a summer apart will help things, but I'm pretty sure I'll just end up as head-over-heels when we see eachother again in the fall. Till then, all I can do is hope I can get my mind off you long enough to enjoy summer, and maybe, maybe, move on.

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Top Places I wanna go

I've been looking into jobs with the UN, as well as volunteering jobs overseas over the past few days.... There are just so many places I wanna see and people I want to help!

Well, I have 2 lists.

First is places I want to vacation or possibly live/work in. These are more typical "tourist" places so I wanted to give them their own list.

1. Japan
2. Germany
3. Russia
4. Australia
5. Dubai


Second are places I want to volunteer in.

1. India
2. Thailand
3. Mexico (again)
4. Kenya
5. Middle East (Afghanistan mainly)


I'm gonna try and save up $3,000 for next summer to go to India. That would cover everything for 4-6 weeks with lots of spending money left over, while I volunteer in an orphanage with the IFRE. It would be so amazing!!

...

Nothing really new still, just posting for the sake of posting.

New Avenged Sevenfold CD coming out next month - pretty excited.
A few friends from Kamloops are supposed to be visiting me over the next week or so.
Got new electric blue nailpolish - it's to die for.
Another author to add to my favorites list: Cheyenne McCray. She writes adult, urban fantasy/paranormal type stories, its heaven on earth.
Reading a new series by her, The Night Tracker Series - It's awsome.
It has Paranormal creatures (elves! and every other kind as well) and Cops/Detectives... and SMUT.
The first book has already layed out a few fantasies of mine
I need a bf that has similar RP'ing tastes LOL

Spirit Bound & other Nonsense

I'm offically moved back to Vernon for the summer, though havn't gotten to hang out with many people yet. Mainly just Jake, and Callum, whom I went longboarding with, and destroyed my foot. Well, its not destroyed, but w/e.

Otherwise, nothing has really happened. Paperwork for getting my job on base, and a lot of sitting around, and reading. LOTS of reading.

Spirit Bound came out a few days ago (the 18th) and though I'm not able to purchase the acctual book yet, I got an online copy. I still want the real book, it was so f**king epic!

Rose, Lissa, ect all graduated, Rose with flying colors obviously. They broke into a prison, and got Victor outta there. After getting the info they needed, they LOST him... Dimitri was brought back, but he was all "I don't deserve you Rose, gtfo" and then after making a few comments that are very Rose-like to the Queen, the Queen happened to get murdered leaving Rose and the prime suspect... and then the book just ends, with her getting hauled away and her dad saying that she isnt going to prison but that "they execute traitors."
that is LITERATLY the last line! WTF right? I know!!


Soo there are lots of insane theories running around about who did what, ect ect. I honestly can't figure some of it out. I know some who are deffinetly involved, but as I'm re-reading the series I'm noticing lots of things that I didn't before so I'll probably end up changing my theory a hundred times over before December, and Last Sacrifice.

In the meantime, I wanna go to the library after the long weekend and see if they have the Succubus series by Richelle Mead as I wanna read that as well (I've heard good things about it, and I believe it, her writing is amazing).

A friend from TRU might come visit me next week sometime. Hes a cool guy, shares a lot of my interests about world cultures, and photography with me. We've met on and off since the international festival, and he's also a friend of Maaya (another good friend of mine) so we've been chatting on and off since her birthday party a few weeks ago. He loves Vernon cus it has Vietnames and Indonesian food, where as kamloops dosn't, saddly.

Anyway, back to reading.

few things...

First things first, I'm going back to Vernon at the end of the week.

Why?

Well, for one, I can't afford rent here seeing as Walmart is F**king me for hours

(seriously, who can live on 4 hours a week at that wage?)

And, I'll be a CI on base by the looks of it, teaching tenor, so once I got booted here I figured there isn't much point trying to rush and find a new place here in Kamloops for like, a month?

And, even if I don't get the job on base, staying with my parents is free, even if it IS annoying (more so because of my sister, not because of my parents, and the fact that I'll be sleeping in the living room, joy!... NOT)

Second thing, I totally found my summer song:

It's so upbeat, makes me happy, and wanna dance!

Everything one would ask for in a "Summer Song"

Anyway, I gotta get up at a decent time tomorrow (today?) so I better go to bed...

next post will prob come from vernon, not sure how much I'll post, especially once I'm on base (as my laptop is de-mobalized due to a broken screen), but i'll try to post as much as possible, pce!

Exams

have been killing me....

BUT

I'm all done for the summer now!!!

Oh, and I might get to be a CI on base this summer too... MAYBE, if my paperwork gets in quickly...


Courses I'm hoping for in september? all 1st year classes still, saddly:

English 111
History 103
Astronomy 114
Theater 111
Anthropology 121

IF I get all the classes and sections I want, I wont have a class past 530 ever, and wed. I'll be done at noon, and NO classes on friday at all.

That means early classes, as in 830am early... but hopefully I'll be sharing a place with my friend Donald and maybe Brittany too - closer to the school - which means I wont have to get up at 6am to get to school in time.... YEAY!



I also need to start blogging more...
I swear I say that in nearly every post tho... LOL

lenses & vampires

waiting for my $$ to go onto my paypal so I can order my first pair of circle lenses.

I'm still debating which I want exactly - I know I want brown/dark ones.

Ones I'm debating are GEO MAGIC ULTRA BLACK or GEO MAGIC Honey Wing

hmmm....


In other ramblings....

the next book in the Vampire academy series comes out in a month (May 18th!!!)

I am so excited! I recently acctually bought the first 4 in the series, and have re-read them all in the last week. In all honesty I will probably read all of them yet again before "Spirit Bound" comes out.

Thenn.... i just have to hold myself until December for "Last Sacrifice" which will be the last in the series...

I'm scared, cus Richelle (author) commented that she was creating a spin off series with the characters that "don't die in the main series" which is making me FREAK cus I dont want anybody else to die!!!!
It's bad enough that Dimka is Strigoi and Rose has to kill him (or he kills her, though I doubt that)....


*sigh* oh well....

lalalalalalala

yah yah, its been a while.
w/e I've been busy.

Just saying I'm alive.
exams are coming (shoot me!)

Editing Photo's

I'm getting better huh?

I really need a proper version of photoshop, trial versions just don't have all the cook stuff!!

*cries*

I have decided....

that I'll be moving to Edmonton this summer.

Nothing is CONFIRMED yet... as I have to apply to a University there, and still arrange a lot of things; but I'm working hard to do so.

Right now, I'm applying to Grant MacEwan University, and my advisor says that thats the best option for me. It seems like a great school, a lot like TRU in size so thats good. Also, they offer Japanese so I can still take it there - I don't like UofA offers Japanese - but they offer russian! So cool!

WE WON

WE WON! WE FUCKING WON!!!!!
Sidney Crosby scored!!!

FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


14 GOLD TOTAL FOR CANADA!!!!
World record @ winter olympics!!!!!!
AMAZING!

Overtime

Canada VS USA

We were winning 2-1 ..... then USA got a goal with like 30 seconds left in the last period!!!
GAHHHHH!!!!!!!

Currently in Overtime...... I Hope we win............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOLD!

As, like, everyone in the world knows - the olympics are in vancouver.
I am so close (like 3 hrs away) but I can't go.... but I am watching the games as much as I can online and at school, as I don't have a working TV where I am living right now.

Women's hockey won gold today against the USA - and our boys play Slovakia tomorrow in the final semi-final round. If they win this, they will be playing for the gold.

Wouldn't it be epic if both our ladies and men won gold on home ground?



Yup.... epic!

Also watched figure skating tonight. Yuna Kim from South Korea broke a record score, and obviously won gold, with Japan getting silver and Canada getting bronze.

Gahhhhh

Cramps, killer cramps...... gahhhhhhhh

feels like I'm gonna DIE

I'm gonna go take a few midol and tylenol, and see if I can numb myself enough to sleep through the night.....

Sorry!

No, I'm not dead - Just pretty busy!

Two weekends ago was valentines day, and my bf came down from edmonton to see me.
It was a great weekend





Last week was also reading break - I worked monday and tuesday but went back to Vernon for wed-sat. It was great! Got to go visit some teachers at Fulton, and talked with ms Walburg for 3 hours straight! I also took my sister shopping at the mall, and hung out with lindsay and visited some other friends!

Now its back to school and work at walmart...
but I think I have found myself a waitressing job while talking with a lady on the bus today
shes the manager at a restaurant near the mall here in kamloops and is desprately looking for waitresses and is really excited to have me apply.

wish me luck!!

wow!

Hot guy huh? Can you believe I went to elementary school with this guy? Infact we were pretty close friends! It was Serena, Kitty, Jan (him) and me. Huh, he's changed quite a bit now, going to a performing arts school in Victoria. Back then we watched Inuyasha and other anime together, lol.

FF XIII

....... *speachless* .......

SO FUCKING EXCITED!!! MARCH 9TH BABY!!

Olympic Torch

Sorry I didn't write sooner, ended up in the hospital friday night and have been busy recovering/working ever since.

The Onlympic Torch Ceremony was AMAZING!!

I got right up close and before the ceremony I was able to talk to one of the other torch barrers that had already ran with it, and he let me hold the torch...

It was so cool, and a lot heavier than I assumed it would be.

Coka Cola team had acrobats on stage,

and there was a real sweet local swing band that opened up the whole show along with some dances and songs by the local Native American groups.

All together a very fun night with a friend from the sorority.

Friday afternoon I blacked out/fained again and woke up with the worst migraine yet

so I went to the hospital...

while waiting my migraine died a little, with the help of tylenol

but I also got into a big fight with Casy again.... grr that girl makes me mad!!

but, we're soooo over being friends now, she crossed the line!

Just finished doing my nails, just a simple nude color

Tomorrow I'm in the international days fashion show, wearing a Yukata.

I'm pretty excited

Also have to go to the library tomorrow to return these manga and get some new ones!!!!

I'm gonna take lots of pics over the next week, so check out facebook.